Last Year: I went to school to teach all day.
This Year: I get to take my kids to school every day.
Last Year: I hung out with teachers and students, smiling and laughing, learning and growing.
This Year: I hang out with my husband, laughing and smiling, working and growing.
Last Year: I went from teaching reading, writing, and math to teaching martial arts and self-control.
This Year: I teach my kids how to be better people and still teach martial arts and self-control.
Last Year: I lived in a different house, filled with memories, familiar creaks, and known issues.
This Year: I live in a rental, furiously finishing the “House of Horrors” that we purchased last October.
Last Year: Things were certain. I knew my place in the world. I understood what was happening around me.
This Year: Family is certain. Rentals are temporary. I am in control of what is happening around me.
This Year has brought many changes to my life. I took a much needed leave of absence to take control of my home life. I am back to actively working on my relationship with my husband, rather than short, “let’s catch up” conversations. I am planning rather than reacting, thinking rather than doing, seizing moments rather than watching them through someone else’s eyes. I am more centered, more thoughtful, more the person I am suppose to be instead of the person I have been. I look forward to each day, instead of just trying to get through each day. I sit here and realize just how deep I was drowning, how heavy the weight on my shoulders was. Now the weight is lifted (not gone), I am treading water, and the shore is in sight. Projects are getting finished, time is mine again, and I can make each day my own. I haven’t written reflectively since last March, but plan to continue. I have all these plans that, last year, I would never have even verbalized. This year, I can put pen to paper, and turn plans into actions. I can breathe in the fresh air, walk my dogs, laugh with my kids, and finally find peace in my awesomely busy life (at least in this moment anyway).